crazytown.

My grandma was once accidentally locked in a psych ward a the state hospital. true story. I don’t know all the details, but the story goes that one day she went to visit her cousin who was going through a tough season in life. She (my grandma) had been baking, canning, working in the garden, cleaning, chasing around 3 rug rats all day and looked every bit of it – messy hair, in her yoga pants – or whatever they called them in the 1950s. She then went to take a pie to her cousin at the hospital (can we just talk a minute about why someone in a psych ward needs a pie? Or even more… is that even allowed?!)  and stayed a little too long – during a shift change to be exact – and the new nurse/guard on duty wouldn’t let her leave. true story.

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That’s exactly what I was afraid was going to happen when Mat called and asked me to bring his dictophone up the hospital asap. on Friday. At 8 in the morning. I don’t know what you and your kids look like at 8am, on Fridays but it’s not pretty around these parts. I don’t work on out Fridays. So at least I wasn’t stinky & gross…BUT I had a coconut oil treatment in my hair, my pj’s on… Syd was in her pj’s and Campbell was just in a shirt/undies with breakfast smeared all over her face. And no one had their teeth brushed. {gross.} so I loaded up crazy town and headed to the hospital. Meanwhile C decides to throw a massive tantrum, which makes Sydney start screaming. All. The. Way. There. I almost prayed they WOULD commit me to the psych ward. From crazytown to the psych ward. Maybe at least I could get a little nap? Or a warm cup of coffee? Or just a few minutes of peace and quiet?! I know I know… that’s horrible…But seriously it crossed my mind.

 

 

And if you’re wondering what “crazytown” is…well, it’s our life right now. That’s what we’ve affectionally nicknamed it. I think the occupants of crazy town like to conspire against their leaders. Like… “you go start screaming and crying inconsolably, I’m going to go “poop” but actually get it all over the bathroom and then run around so that mommy has to yell one more time ‘we don’t run around the house with a poopy bootie!!!‘ it’ll be hilarious!!” {OHHHH  the things you never thought you’d be screaming yelling,  patiently saying in a sing song-y voice….}

I love love love this stage in life. Don’t get me wrong. I love the laughter, the snuggles, the slobbery kisses, the books, the silly songs, the adventures….But its full on CRAZY some days. Two kiddos are kicking my bootie. Some days, motherhood is kicking my bootie. Some days, it’s all I can do just to make it to nap time. But God’s mercies are new every. stinking. morning. Even when Sydney wakes up at 4, Campbell wakes up at 5 and then Sydney wakes up {again} at 6. Even on those mornings… there’s a cup of coffee and a fresh start. {And hopefully not errands during my coconut oil treatment}

by bethany

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Crazytown. I get it. I live there most days. Enjoyed this. ;)

That day DOES sound crazy! Oh my. But thank you for the reminder (as my two girlies are fighting naptime….) that God’s mercies are new each day…and that there’s always coffee. :)

i heart instagram.

I’m more than slightly obsessed with instagram. If you follow me on IG – I apologize – you probably see way more of my posts than you’d like to, but it’s cool. My kids are cute, so it can’t be that bad, right? I recently took a little {much-needed} break from the old world of Facebook. I’m just kind of over it for now. Not because I’m too cool for it or anything like that. No, I would just find myself mindlessly getting on it on my iPhone… and then getting mad at people complaining about their lives/kids/jobs {seriously… I don’t need to know every horrible thing your child has done today. Maybe if you got off fb, they’d behave a little better…ouch. Yes. I said that. }  Or whining about politics. Or asking me to buy a cow for FarmVille {or whatever that place is}.  I needed to take a step back, so I took it off my phone and gave it up for awhile. WELL in the mean time I went a little instagram cuckoo. Mat just laughed and accused me of replacing one form of social media for another. Maybe. But I’ve decided instagram is way cooler. And funnier. And happier. And quicker. And I love documenting those little wacky  moments of our life.  You know, those moments when you finish feeding your newborn and find your toddler giving herself a bath in the kitchen sink. {Please tell me that’s happened to someone else?!} And remembering when I feel like pulling my hair out that I really need to stop taking life so seriously and just enjoy these days… these days in Crazytown as we affectionally call it around here.

Mat has been working his tail off lately… Well, he always works hard… but his schedule has been crazy busy since right after the holidays. I’m by no means complaining – it’s a season in life. We feel very fortunate to have a job and live near family and have wonderful babysitters. And he is an awesome daddy that is instantly in daddy mode when he walks through the door… if he makes it home during Power Hour {you know … those last few hours before  bedtime. Yeah. Power Hour. Drink a cup of coffee and gear up.} We’ve made SURE to make the most of his time off when he’s got it!

SO here is our life. The Good life. In March {so far}. According to Instagram we….

closed on our KS house… played outside a lot…. enjoyed adventures with nana….smoked a delicious pork and had a nice bottle of wine… went bowling for a friend’s birthday…had a few sick days…did some antiquing…enjoyed several date nights (thanks nana & papa!)…learned to use the exersaucer…played nicely {sometimes} with our sister…enjoyed some gorgeous sunsets (our kitchen has an unbelievable view)…went for ice cream….trained for a half marathon….went for some not so great walks in the double BOB….turned 5 whole months(!)…dyed easter eggs… went for a donut date with mommy…enjoyed some more wine & sunsets…turned the junk closet into a dressup closet…{campbell} filled out her very first March Madness bracket…enjoyed the Aquarium with cousins…became a master thumb sucker….took a nap {kind of} with papa…

One of these days, I hope to be able to pull some actual thoughts/sentences together and write some real blog posts again. I miss blogging… I just can’t find time for it in the midst of sleep training/potty training/half marathon training…

And if you want to follow me & our crazy crew on instagram, my tag is @goodbethany.

by bethany

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Ooooh, love the collage! How did you make that? Obvs, I love IG, too. ;) And I 100% agree about Facebook. It’s been off of my phone/computer/ipad for a few months, and although I check it sometimes, it’s just bugging me these days. Thank goodness for Instagram! ;)

You are a genius! 1 blog post a month where you just recap what happened during the whole month via IG pictures! Think of how much easier our blog books will be!!! :) . Ps we need to set that date for a weekend in a hotel with our Macs (ok and plenty of wine) and catch up on our books!! 2012 still hasn’t happened for me….

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Today we are celebrating Parker Grace. It’s been 3 years today that we found out we lost our little baby girl (If you’re new to our blog and totally confused… read this) In so many ways, it seems like a completely different life. A different world altogether. We’ve grown older, hopefully a little wiser, we’ve moved homes & states and added to our little family. But it’s still us, the same family and she is still our daughter…our heavenly daughter… giving us angel kisses today (as one of my sweet friends shared with me today… I love that visual)

We’ve been blessed with texts, emails, calls, flowers and messages today. I’ll be honest – the anniversary kind of snuck up on me. Friends started checking on me earlier in the week and I have to say, we are okay. My soul is happy; my heart, though changed, is healed. A huge part of of that healing has been Sydney. After Campbell & Parker’s birth I wanted to get pregnant right away. There was a void in our family that I could see and feel. Every milestone, holiday, event… everything was accompanied with the thought of… “I should be doing this times two…” And while I cherished everything, I mourned everything at the same time. Our family was not complete.. I needed to have another baby in my arms, and wanted to make that happen as soon as possible. I was shocked when I learned we were having a girl. I just knew God wouldn’t put me through that… that He would know having another baby girl would be too painful, would remind me too much of Parker…so clearly God was going to give us a baby boy. Nope. {Isn’t it great when we put God in a box?} My friend Jami had an awesome post this week that has been speaking to me all week long. “I love that God is leaving nothing undone. it’s like he’s going back in time and mending wounds, the big gashes and the tiny tears. He sees them all and He does not forget even when i try. i pushed things into the “forget” corner because they were too small of hurts that didn’t matter all that much. and God brings them to the light and says, this one too. i’ll mend that too. i’m not done here.”  She’s sharing from a totally different hurt, but it spoke so strongly to me. This is what God did through our entire pregnancy this second time. He continually mended wounds, big ones and little ones. From one of my best friends showing up at my very first US with Sydney and waiting with me the whole time (even as they ran crazy slow…PS not cool to make a prego with a VERY full bladder wait…just saying) to finding a new OB in Tulsa that rocked and completely “got” our previous pregnancy… to a HEALTHY & BORING pregnancy….To the most peaceful and easiest delivery. Mat is going to be embarrassed that I’m sharing this, but  Sydney was even conceived on Parker’s two year anniversary… Sorry for the tmi…but seriously – if that doesn’t sound like turning ashes into beauty…. mourning into gladness…I don’t know what does.

Little Sydney, you have helped heal my heart. You’ve made me a momma, again. In so many, many ways, you are the perfect addition to our family, and for now, at least, completing our little family of 5. You’re giving us another baby girl to hold, and an earthly sister for Campbell.

Oh Campbell. Every time I look at your sweet little face I wonder about Parker. We know you were identical… so I’m pretty sure I know what she would look like…but what in the world would her personality be like? At times I seriously think that you have the energy/determination of both of you. Some days I can imagine what our life would be like with three little girls in our home, but most days, honestly I can’t. And yesterday when I found you bathing yourself in the kitchen sink while I put your sister down for her nap, I REALLY couldn’t imagine it. 

So today is like any other day… and I love it because it means I have two little girls to take care of. There’s laundry, dishes, a crying baby who needs to take a nap & a napping toddler who {thankfully} has not had any accidents today (Have I mentioned how much I detest potty training?!… Because I do. Do you think there is potty training in Heaven? I’m pretty sure Parker is pt’d by now up in heaven…) When Mat gets home we’re sending some balloons up to heaven for her…it’s become our little family tradition. And that’s it. Our day… we’re happy, healthy and most importantly, together.

So thank you. Thank you for loving us, for remembering and for celebrating.

by bethany

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Beautifully written. You are a good Mommy…to all three of your girls.

Jessica

You are so strong! Your girls are so blessed to have such a good momma! I love your special way of keeping Parker Grace in your hearts!

three. months. old.

 

I’m going to be totally honest for a moment. Clients will frequently ask me what are my favorite / least favorite type of sessions are. I have never actually admitted to anyone what my least favorite session is. until now. Three months…By far…. is my least favorite session. Just being honest. I do them… and I enjoy them… but they aren’t my fave by any means. The baby doesn’t really do anything but smile… any you can’t always get them to do that. They are still pretty wobbly & can of hard to position. Now six months… or NINE months… now those are a bunch more fun. Just not three. Just being honest. So why all of this honesty? Well because Sydney is three months today. I have no clue where all the time went… Probably got lost somewhere in the newborn/holiday/potty training fog… With Campbell I did a full blown sesh every.single.month. Not this time. It’s just not happening. I instagram MORE than my share of her… I’m just trying to make these sessions (3, 6, 9, 12)  more “special” this time. yeah right.

Any ways! Three months. Its the time you start to see a little personality start to emerge. This little lady has the sweetest personality. She is super chill 75% of the time and a little pistol the other 25%. She’s getting REAL used to being held and does not like for you to put her down. She “talks” constantly and smiles a ton… just mostly for us 3. My parents didn’t believe that she smiled until recently. She’s a little stingy with those smiles.

 

 

The best part? She’s a sleeper. Still. I kept waiting for that to change… but after 3 months, I think we are safe. At least for now. She goes to bed at 7 (same as C) and sleeps until around 4. Eats. Then sleeps until 7:30ish in the morning. And when I say she “goes to bed”… that’s it. No hours of soothing. No dyson. No singing “Country Road” 30,000 times. Nope. Just falls asleep.  Thank the Lord Almighty. Yep. She’s the baby that tricks you into having #3 (as long as I can pay someone to potty train #3). She’s a cuddle bug and just plain “easy”. She is the perfect addition to our little family.

I honestly don’t have a clue what she weighs… I don’t own a scale so I’m guessing around 10lbs? At her 2 month apt she was 9lb 10oz… so she’s a little bigger than that. How’s that for exact?

Contrary to this next picture she really does have good head control… I promise. She was just getting a little bored with our photo sesh. Sorry sydster.

 

Speaking of Sydster… she has a few nicknames we use… Sydster, Syds, Sister, cutie bootie.

My favorite part is watching these to together. They absolutely adore each other. Campbell has a way of calming her down when I’m busy trying to do one more thing… Sydney is always looking around, watching her big sis. I’m sure their sisterly love will have its ups and downs…but for now I’m loving this sweetness

 

And for all of those who ask if Sydney resembles Campbell … the answer is absolutely, most definitely, YES. They are little clones I feel like. I have other people tell me they don’t look a like, so I thought maybe it was just me that thought that. Until I looked through some old pictures…Here’s Campbell at 3 months..

(Uhm holy white balance??? Nope, she wasn’t jaundiced. I was just a little out of control with extra “Warmth”  2  1/2 yrs ago. I still have the raw file that I could change, but It’s definitely fun to see how my photography has changed/grown over the past few years. Okay, you can take your sunglasses off now)

And here’s Sydney. Today. Uhm yep…pretty sure it’s the same baby.

 

Big Sis just couldn’t be left out of the photo sesh. Please ignore the lack of clothing. We aren’t nudists. Just in the throws of potty training and pretty much just rock undies when at home. This little nook is one of my favorite spots in our house. Love the window and the lighting.

 

Sweet Little Sydney. You are just what my heart needed. You are the perfect addition to our family. We adore you … and your sleeping habits. I’m so happy God gave you to us.

 

by bethany

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Adorable!!! And they DO look so much alike!

I can’t believe how similar C and S look! They are both so adorable. I love the marker on C’s leg… She’s a crack up! AND I need to come for a Syd visit. She is going to seem like a different baby!

Obsessed with that first pic of her on the changing table. Seriously. And the last pic of C reading. Love those baby Good girls!

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